College
I am really not sure that I want to point fingers, it seems like everybody at the moment is just doing enough to keep their jobs and the enthusiasm that you occasionally see from staff or teachers is missing. There seems to be a failure at the top, the whole idea of passing on knowledge has been eroded by cut backs and extra work loads having no time for the fundamentals. People have been really friendly here, but have no real power to change the system, and the information you receive always is followed by contradictory information from the next part of the process, probably driven by another set of agendas. Today’s task is very basic, clean and repair faults at my apartment in order to get some of my deposit back.
The Spanish test yesterday just proves my point, virtually everybody failed, and including those who were able to avail of an intensive course before lessons began, not for the Irish. There is another test next week to try and pull a few through, thus protecting the Spanish teacher’s back. I will be there and who knows, either way my Spanish will be good enough soon. Just received a reply, only those that were just under pass level can re take exam???
This is an experience I would not have missed for the world, but today all the other parts of my life that are negative are screaming at me, hence a big clean up, I don’t allow this mood to side track me into a standstill anymore and tomorrow I go to Valencia blind to knock on doors again, looking forward to that, I don’t think I am asking too much to fulfil my true ambition and the feedback I have received from all my art work here has given me confidence in my abilities, something sadly missing in me for all these years.
I really cannot take a step back now, this is my time and if I have to become a nuisance, if that is the way to get there, that is the way it will have to be.
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